Life As An Earthling

I’d been suffering from OCD since I was a child. I never went to the doctor but I knew that I have it. Having OCD is very tiring. Kinda. I always have this repetitive thought & do sort of repetitive action. I don’t think anyone realize it except myself. When I was younger, my repetitive action mostly by aligning object to have a straight line or in a “correct position”. If I didn’t do it, something bad is going to happen like someone will kill me or I will have an accident etc. That is what my brain told me. It was quite bad when I was younger. Another repetitive action that I do even until now is in term of washing or cleaning or brushing my teeth. I always have these thoughts that if I didn’t clean properly something bad going to happen or the chemical will give me cancer. It’s that bad. It makes me laugh but it’s almost like an automatic action. My OCD-ish actions also includes counting objects in certain numbers like 3,5,7 or 8. For example if I want to eat crackers, I

#Disclaimer: I am already free from depression. This post is regarding my reflection on how I feel and what was my thoughts during my depression episode last year and years before that Yesterday Jonghyun from Shinee had died due to depression. He committed suicide. I was a fan of Shinee many years ago when I was so into all this kpop stuff. But at my age now, kpop is not relevant to me anymore. I'm more into soul RnB and classical music now. Back to Jonghyun. I was shocked when I read the news about him passing. I thought it was just a hoax. I was wrong. He was really gone. A few of celebrities had committed suicide but i never feel sad except for Jonghyun. I have to admit a few little tears came out. Perhaps because I used to be their fan when I was so crazy about Kpop. They were my favorite band beside Infinite at that time. And because I know how depression feels like. But not to the point that I want to commit suicide though. I'm glad it didn't reach to that point.

I’m not really active in FB now. Normally I just scroll the feed just to read some news. I’m like many others, found that things that had been posted by some people are annoying. Ok I get it it’s a good platform to share what’s happening in your life to your beloved friends. But too much of everything is not good. I didn’t unfollow these people. I just use FB less nowadays. But I have to admit that I did unfollow some people although they are still my ‘friend’ on FB. They are those people who love to post racist statement or toxic people. So below are my list of annoying people on FB lol: 1. Gym, yoga or Zumba enthusiast.      I’m fine with these people if they didn’t post their workout pic every ‘second’ they are in the gym etc. It’s very unflattering to see your  sweat or show off things that people don’t want to see. One pic is fine. But too much of it, is annoying. 2. Cry baby This is another level of people who love to rant on FB (i’m Ok with this) . But not Ok with a c

hello blogspot! i'm back! well i'm bored. hence i decided to write something. i bet my adsense stay with income of USD 0.01 lol because nobody actually read my blog. but that doesn't matter. Probably in the future i can get back to this blog & read it after 10 years & laugh about it lol. i did laugh on my old post from like 8 years ago. I sounds so silly & naive. Wow! how time flies !! It's already September. Although it is such a peaceful year for me personally, but Geez what a boring year it is. There is no progress in my life other than my inner peace lol. i bet if i don't have a family, i might be homeless by now. haha. but if im near to homeless situation, i might not be like this if i dont have anyone anyway.  I might be cleaning the loo or scrubbing the floor by now in order to eat. Do u get me? lol i just exaggerate on that part. i have no exact topic for this post, just want to ramble nonsense. that's what i love to talk about when im i

Well I'm not yet 32 but I'm going to be 32 soon. Yup I'm a Leo. An introvert Leo to be precise. I can't believe that I'm already in my 30's. I feel like my life passing me by too fast. I feel like I'm not ready for a lot of things. At your 30's most of your friends already get married & having kids but I feel like it's not something for me... yet. I don't even like kids to be honest nor do I have motherly nature. Not at all. I'm still my selfish self. I don't even like to spend money on people. Being a minimalist by nature doesn't help. I guess a lot of people don't understand. But I will not make anyone understand because it's just me being myself. I don't have to live my life the way people wanted me to. I just want to be happy & have peace in myself. Anything else doesn't matter that much. Well of course some people will or already judge me for being like this. But to get rid of all those negativity, I

 I love collecting stuff from other countries like shot glass, coins & jewelry.  I'm not sure if I should call this as jewelry or not lol because it is not made from jewel or anything lol. I don't really wear them to be honest since I'm not a jewelry type of woman. The only 'jewelry' that i wear are some small crystal earring. Anyway lets look at my small foreign jewelry collection. Murano glass earring        Murano glass pendant                                            Backview of Murano glass pendant All of this I bought at Venice island for like 2 Euro i think. I love those Murano glass that have flower in it.                                   Murano glass earring   This one I bought at Burano island for like 7-8 Euro 😅😅 Gypsy earring This one I bought at La Rambla, Barcelona for 5 Euro. I love the Bohemian feel of it, They have a lot of other type but I can only afford to buy one since I'm a poor Asian woman