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The Upward Spiral

I’m not sure what to feel about new year. I just hope I would be able to do something. Continue to experience & explore new things & places. I can’t stand monotonous life. It’s just not for me. It makes me feel awkward mentally.  For me life is kinda stop when I stop exploring. I’m still exploring in a way but in a different way. More like exploring knowledge & myself through books & countless articles. Getting more knowledge of any kinds give me sort of satisfaction. I never really realize that knowledge is really that powerful. Previously all I know is that, u need knowledge to pass the exam & that’s it. Talk about Malaysian education system failure at its finest.

Anyway as I wrote in my previous blog entries, I had mention that I’m still trying to figure out a way to prevent depression recurrent. I can’t say that I found it yet but I think I sort of found some ways to deal with it. I read this book called “The Upward Spiral: Using Neuroscience to Reverse the Cou…

Am I weird?

Hi..I am 27 years old going 28 this year..I have no job..no money..I'm single and I don't know what to do with my life ..I did almost 7 different jobs for the past 4 years including some odd jobs..During my secondary school time, I am always at the top of my class..no. 1 ..get good results..I study hard until I lost some of my vision..I have big ambition...My childhood ambition is to be an astronomer..I know rite..we don't  even have astronomy here in Malaysia..but yeah I don't know what to do with that ambition of mine.so here i am..now..Some people think that they are not lucky enough but i guess they did miss something there..OK..i know what u are thinking..I'm not trying to sounds pathetic or sounds like a loser or anything..I just wanna write..I love writing..not that sort of writing.I don't like academic writing..Its killing me...I mean this kinda writing..expressive writing..but I can't be a writer because I always lost my idea somewhere in the midd…