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The Upward Spiral

I’m not sure what to feel about new year. I just hope I would be able to do something. Continue to experience & explore new things & places. I can’t stand monotonous life. It’s just not for me. It makes me feel awkward mentally.  For me life is kinda stop when I stop exploring. I’m still exploring in a way but in a different way. More like exploring knowledge & myself through books & countless articles. Getting more knowledge of any kinds give me sort of satisfaction. I never really realize that knowledge is really that powerful. Previously all I know is that, u need knowledge to pass the exam & that’s it. Talk about Malaysian education system failure at its finest.

Anyway as I wrote in my previous blog entries, I had mention that I’m still trying to figure out a way to prevent depression recurrent. I can’t say that I found it yet but I think I sort of found some ways to deal with it. I read this book called “The Upward Spiral: Using Neuroscience to Reverse the Cou…

My life at 32

Well I'm not yet 32 but I'm going to be 32 soon. Yup I'm a Leo. An introvert Leo to be precise.
I can't believe that I'm already in my 30's.
I feel like my life passing me by too fast.
I feel like I'm not ready for a lot of things. At your 30's most of your friends already get married & having kids but I feel like it's not something for me... yet. I don't even like kids to be honest nor do I have motherly nature. Not at all. I'm still my selfish self. I don't even like to spend money on people. Being a minimalist by nature doesn't help.

I guess a lot of people don't understand. But I will not make anyone understand because it's just me being myself. I don't have to live my life the way people wanted me to. I just want to be happy & have peace in myself. Anything else doesn't matter that much. Well of course some people will or already judge me for being like this. But to get rid of all those negativity, I just…