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The Upward Spiral

I’m not sure what to feel about new year. I just hope I would be able to do something. Continue to experience & explore new things & places. I can’t stand monotonous life. It’s just not for me. It makes me feel awkward mentally.  For me life is kinda stop when I stop exploring. I’m still exploring in a way but in a different way. More like exploring knowledge & myself through books & countless articles. Getting more knowledge of any kinds give me sort of satisfaction. I never really realize that knowledge is really that powerful. Previously all I know is that, u need knowledge to pass the exam & that’s it. Talk about Malaysian education system failure at its finest.

Anyway as I wrote in my previous blog entries, I had mention that I’m still trying to figure out a way to prevent depression recurrent. I can’t say that I found it yet but I think I sort of found some ways to deal with it. I read this book called “The Upward Spiral: Using Neuroscience to Reverse the Cou…

Master Degree?? is it worth it?

My answer:

Not worth it..but for my personal satisfaction and achievement, worth it. This answer is not for people who've been sponsored by a university to further their studies to be a lecturer (well they already got the job so no fuss). My studies sponsored by a combination of 3: myself, my dad & MOHE. Some of my friends have express their interest to further studies before so i guess maybe some peeps out there might have the same question too & have difficult time to decide..so (again) this is what i think from my own experience. Before that i wanna tell u my story..the reason why i further my studies is because i don't get any job other than a job as a temporary teacher (good salary with no future no guarantee unless if u really wanna be a school teacher - mind u controlling 13-17 years old students is very difficult plus i was assign to teach some (most) class which consist of studs that have discipline problems). Half day work good salary  etc etc..nah..it is a v…

le life is wonderful

I like it this moment..'a non stressful life'..i feel happy.i'm quiet..i'm relaxing..reading novels**....listening to peaceful soothing songs.watching reality tv show...do YouTube marathon-ing new songs old songs; ed sheeran, nina simone, janis joplin (i'm hunger for soul..i mean soul songs) etc etc..wikipedia-ing here and there about almost anything (i have big curiosity but i don't like to be curious about ordinary life of other people around me) mainly about singers..trying new recipe..haha...i'm not thinking..i mean not thinking much about anything..a bliss..apart from the time when my mom or dad noising around..anyway of course i couldn't have this kinda life forever..soon my money would become less and less.like that story with the title 'lotus eater'..a classic story..did u read that?? not a good example..but i have similar thoughts like that poor guy sometimes..maybe this is another sign of my weirdness-es .second anyway, i guess soon i&…

Am I weird?

Hi..I am 27 years old going 28 this year..I have no job..no money..I'm single and I don't know what to do with my life ..I did almost 7 different jobs for the past 4 years including some odd jobs..During my secondary school time, I am always at the top of my class..no. 1 ..get good results..I study hard until I lost some of my vision..I have big ambition...My childhood ambition is to be an astronomer..I know rite..we don't  even have astronomy here in Malaysia..but yeah I don't know what to do with that ambition of mine.so here i am..now..Some people think that they are not lucky enough but i guess they did miss something there..OK..i know what u are thinking..I'm not trying to sounds pathetic or sounds like a loser or anything..I just wanna write..I love writing..not that sort of writing.I don't like academic writing..Its killing me...I mean this kinda writing..expressive writing..but I can't be a writer because I always lost my idea somewhere in the midd…